Deepdreamer

Well…I have found a diet lifestyle change that I think I can stick to… Heather ( yummysushipajamas) gave me the idea…I looked into it and it sounds really good!

I am not one for dieting, becuase quite frankly, at 5′10′, and almost 60kgs, I don’t need it, but this revolves around healthy eating, excersise and ALCOHOL- that’s right…alcohol! Well, red wine anyway…only prob is, I can’t drink red…I’, a white girl! But I am sure we’ll find our way around it!

Essentially, the diet has emphasis on lots of fresh fruit and veg, seafood as a main part of my intake, in place of meat, some dairy and poultry, with red meat and sweets being consumed occasionally….

Along with regular excersise and lots of water…I reckon I can do this! It’s not a diet! It’s a lifestyle change!!!

Deepdreamer

Do not stand at my grave and weep ,

I am not there,

I do not sleep,

 I am a thousand winds that blow,

 I am the diamond glints on snow,

 I am the sunlight on ripened grain,

 I am the gentle autumn’s rain.

When you awaken in the morning’s hush,

 I am the swift uplifting rush of soaring birds in circled flight.

I am the star that shines at night.

Do not stand at my grave and cry.

I am not there, I did not die.

You have no idea how much you mean to me. When you asked me what the 15th of October meant to me, I told you.

“It is a day for people around the world to light a candle in memory of their baby that has died.”

I really don’t know why I expect you to sigh, or to roll your eyes, or to get frustrated. Even after this long, your support still surprises me.

You asked me “would you like me to light one too?”

This left me speechless. All I could do was whisper “yes, if you want to’.

He amazes me some days. Lily wasn’t his daughter and yet he gives me and her memory unwavering support.

R- you are amazing, and I love you so very much. You mean the world to me.

Deepdreamer

I honestly cannot remember the last time I posted. From memory, I believe it was just before I finished Prac.

I passed my prac with flying colours and got a glowing report! I survived the last day of school intact, even with a relief teacher working with me!

I was exhausted after those 3 weeks though. I have spent my last week or so sleeping in, catching up on assessments and helping my friends move.  My ‘bogan’ friends finally got a house on government listing, so they can afford a place to themselves at long last. They moved about 80ks away, so I will have to limit my visits to day trips or long weekend trips only

I’ve worked my usual shifts, and come home exhausted, This weekend and last, I have spent the day hopped up on Red Bull, as I have had two weekends worth of going out

Last weekend R and I went on a ‘date’ . We very rarely get dressed up and go out anymore. Our weekends together generally consist of take out and what ever movie is on the TV on a Sat night, and then bed by about 10pm…So it was a nice change to get dressed up, put on a lovely dress, put makeup on and eat and drink wine to our hearts content!

He’s down here for a week and a bit for work, so it is great timing, as I have to classes! OH! and I am also off home this weekend, I have booke dit off work.

Sooo my weekend is going to consist of a ball- masquerade themed- on Friday night, with 5 hours unlimited alcohol, and a 3 course meal. Saturday R and I are getting up and driving 500ks to go home, then it is my friends 21st Sat night, with a quite large bar tab, and then an 11:45am bus ride back to uni…and then class on Monday!

Oh dear.

What have I gotten myself into???

Deepdreamer

If today was the last time I saw you,

I would re-play every moment,

If today was the last time I hugged you,

I would hug you a thousand times more,

If today was the last time I talked to you,

I would not stop talking,

If today was the last time I said I miss you,

I would tell you how much I cared,

But since I don’t know if this is the last day of my life,

I will try to be there for you

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To my beautiful butterfly