The good news? I’m not preganant.

The bad news? I feel like crap with really heavy cramps and I’m horrible to be around at the moment!

It came as relief, but a tiny part of me is sad that there is no baby. It’s difficult being in this position- if I wasn’t studying, I probably would have still not had a baby, but at least I know we could have entertained the possibility of it, rather than knowing that I am the most maternal person ever, and babies and children aren’t possible for years yet. I want a baby, but I have to wait. It is the waiting and seeing part that is hard…