The one where I am in labour, but the baby is born too early, and I give birth to nothing. The pain is so incredibly real, and yet again, I end up with empty arms. I go through the whole birth process, and give birth to nothing. This time, the baby was born at 19 weeks. I was not allowed to see her. My mother kept distracting me from what had happened. I never got to hold my baby, or see her.

Why do I keep dreaming of giving birth to nothing?? The first one, I was in labour and my boss (!) was helping me through. This time, it was- I guess- a midwife. Both times, I awoke before I was able to hold the baby (nothing?)

Is it my heart telling me what to expect? Am I doomed to a life of loss and grief forever, or are they simply dreams?