My butterfly babies, I have been feeling you with me now, more than ever. Your presence, your spirit that is with me, is had made me feel as though you are right here with me,as though you had never left.

I don’t know why you both seem to be with me- a presence so powerful it has left me feeling as though I have had the wind knocked out of me. Is it because it is coming up to a year- on the 13th- since I lost my second baby? Is it because I am helping to organise the most beautiful rememberance ceremony for October 15th? Is it because it’s another day, another friend who has lost another little tiny life?

Is it because you want to remind me that I am still a mother, no matter what?

I can feel you here. Help me through my little loves.